The recent race report perfectly illustrates why so many Black women feel their lived experiences are ignored, argues broadcaster Zeze Millz
The recent race report has done nothing to move the dial in mine or other Black women’s daily lives. We’re often being suffocated by the misogynoir, disregard and disrespect that exists out in the real world. The death of George Floyd last May, saw movements such as Blackout Tuesday and multiple brands being called out for indulging in Black culture but never giving us our roses, acknowledgement or paying us our worth. We began to see slight changes, but as predicted, a lot of it was performative.
I don’t feel like much has changed for Black British women. We see countless examples of how our lives do not matter or mean less than our peers. In October 2020, 21-year-old business student, Blessing Olusgen went missing and was found dead on a beach in Bexhill-on-Sea. Months earlier, in June 2020, sisters Nicole Smallman, 27, and Bibaa Henry, 46, were found dead with multiple stab wounds in a park in Wembley, north-west London. There was hardly any media coverage on these cases. In March 2021, the disappearance and suspected murder of 33-year-old Sarah Everard, received huge nationwide headlines.
The Black Lives Matter movement became a global protest (Getty Images)
Fatigue is embedded in our psyche
Being on social media can – as we all know – take a toll on most people. But imagine continuously seeing people that look like you, your friends or your family being killed, murdered by the very people we’ve entrusted to serve and protect us. Imagine the fatigue that is deeply embedded in our very psyche from being continuously gaslit for feelings that we know are real. Imagine seeing constant content that confirms, and affirms, the feelings and notion that Black women are at the bottom of the barrel.
Of course, Sarah’s disappearance deserved to be given blanket press coverage, but where was that same energy for my fellow Black sisters who had been taken from us? As Black women we notice these things every day, however when the report on The Commission on Race and Ethnic Disparities was released in April 2021, implying institutionalised racism no longer exists within the UK (when we all know that is not the case) for many of us the exhaustion and tiredness we feel continues because, well, the gaslighting continues. The struggles we consistently face in our everyday life lets us know that the United Kingdom is rigged against Black people and ethnic minorities. This race report was just another example of our lived experiences being continuously overlooked and disregarded.
It’s not in us to give in
A couple of months ago, I recorded one of my Headscarf Diaries (my online Instagram stream of consciousness where I get issues off my chest) on how tiresome the last 12 months have been for Black women. Black women often take the weight of injustices on our shoulders and in our hearts. We are often at the forefront of protests and change. The Black Lives Matter protests in London had many fellow Black women at the helm. And it made me think, ‘Why are we still protesting against racism? Why should we be living in fear and constantly witnessing trauma? Why aren’t we living our truly best, carefree life?’ I attended those protests and remember feeling angry that I was back marching again as I had done almost five years before when Americans Philandro Castile and Alton Sterling were shot dead by US police officers. I felt as if there had been no change or justice and wondered if anything would ever really change.
So while we continue to feel the fatigue, one thing that is innate in Black women is the ability to never give up. Yes, we feel tired, but to give up is to give in. And that’s just not in us.
* Zeze Millz is a broadcaster and creator of The Zeze Millz Show, also known as The Cultural Commentator
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